Faithful

 My heart is heavy lately and the burdens I'm facing have been a struggle. As I continue to grow and heal and process all of the things, I'm reminded time and time again that I don't face these things alone. When things are hard....

From the ends of the earth I call to you,

    I call as my heart grows faint;

    lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

            - Psalm 61:2

I can take everything to Him. He wants all of it. All my hurts, anger, fear, sadness, happy, or bitter. He created me and knows it all anyway. He wants me to hand it back to Him. That's where we find true healing. 

So as I'm struggling lately to process through some difficult things, my soul has felt heavy, my steps unsteady, and my mind overwhelmed. My little ADHD brain bounces around like a pinball inside my skull and it can make a completing something interesting, which often leads to things being more confusing because I move on before the end goal of processing has been completed. This in turn will also just lead to more overwhelm because it piles up and doesn't get addressed properly. That's where I found myself today.

This morning my heart was heavy. I love my job but I didn't want to be there today. I really just wanted to come home and curl up with my Bible and have a talk with God. We talked while I worked but it's not the same as being able to sit down and fully submerse myself in His presence. I needed it, my soul CRIED for it. Thankfully, I'm close enough to home that I went on my lunch break and did just that. And as anticipated, He showed up. 

I always thank my God for you because of his grace given you in Christ Jesus. For in him you have been enriched in every way—with all kinds of speech and with all knowledge— God thus confirming our testimony about Christ among you. Therefore you do not lack any spiritual gift as you eagerly wait for our Lord Jesus Christ to be revealed. He will also keep you firm to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is faithful, who has called you into fellowship with his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.

-  1 Corinthians 1:4-9

I don't know about you but there are things that I'm eagerly waiting on. Impatient for even. But as I look back over all the things that He's already completed in my life, I can tell I've grown and "enriched in every way—with all kinds of speech and with all knowledge". As I wait on the Lord, He reminds me that I'm not lacking in His eyes. I'm not less than, I'm not missing all the things. As I sit and wait eagerly for the things He's promised to come true, I'm fully equipped to continue. It's hard, but I "do not lack any spiritual gift as you eagerly wait for our Lord Jesus Christ to be revealed". He has promised completion, He has promised fulfillment. I know He is faithful and while I wait, He will keep me secure. 

 The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do it.

- 1 Thessalonians 5:24

He's called me. He has plans for me. He has spoken them over my life and used others to do the same. He is faithful. It will happen. 

God is not human, that he should lie,
    not a human being, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
    Does he promise and not fulfill?

- Numbers 23:19

His promises are always fulfilled. His word is always faithful. He always completes what He starts. He's not ADHD and skitters around starting all of the projects and not completing any of them. 

so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
    It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
    and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

- Isaiah 55:11

When He speaks, you know it's going to happen. I've seen it in my own life repeatedly. Look at the stories in the Bible as well. He is constant, consistent, and cannot lie. 

being confident of this, that he who began a good work 

in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

- Phillipians 1:6

While I wait, when I'm discouraged, when I struggle, I can remember this. God is faithful. Hiw promises will come to pass. I can rest in Him knowing that my future is secure. When I remove my flesh from the picture and allow Him control, things always turn out better. It's only when I am trying to control and take over that I get anxious or scared. Reminding myself to just be still and allow Him to move can be difficult but it's always so rewarding. 

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, 

“plans to prosper you and not to harm you, 

plans to give you hope and a future.

- Jeremiah 29:11

If you're struggling right now, lean into Him. Allow Him to lead. He loves you more than you could possibly understand, deeper than we can possibly fathom, and more completely than we can ever compare to the love available to us here on earth. 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
6 
in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight.

- Proverbs 3:5-6

It's only when we try to take over do things get messy. We cannot understand what He's trying to accomplish and will just end up frustrated, scared, and anxious if we try to take our future from His hands. 

Rest in Him.

Trust in Him.

He is faithful. 


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